This Doe has a Narrow Womb

by tillerofthesoil

ImageDo you observe the calving of does? (Job 39:1). This doe has a narrow vagina. When she crouches to give birth, I prepare a נָחָשׁ (naḥash), serpent, which bites the vagina and she is loosened of her offspring. If it comes one second too soon or one second too late, she immediately dies” (BT Bava Batra 16b, cf. Zohar 2:111b; נָחָשׁ (naḥash), serpent, שָׂטָן (satan), adversary, and מָשִׁיחַ (Mashiaḥ), Messiah, each share a numerical value).

“Rabbi Shim’on said, ‘There is one doe on earth, and the blessed Holy One does so much for her. When she cries out, the blessed Holy One hearkens to her anguish. And when the world is in need of mercy, for water, she cries aloud and the blessed Holy One listens and then feels compassion for the world, as is written As the deer, yearns for streams of water (Psalms 42:2). When she needs to give birth, she is totally constricted; then she puts her head between her knees, crying out and screaming, and the blessed Holy One feels compassion for her and provides her with a serpent who bites her genitalia, opening and tearing that place, and immediately she gives birth.’ Rabbi Shim’on said, ‘Concerning this matter, do not ask and do not test את יהוה—so it is precisely!’” (Zohar 2:52b, cf. Rabbi Ḥayyim Vital, Sefer ha-Liqqutim: At the tent flap sin crouches [Genesis 4:7]—the serpent which bites the vagina is the secret of the name, קֶרַע שָׂטָן [qera satan], tear [of the] adversary [Ana Bekoaḥ]).

“And in the first month… [a Passover offering to YHWH] (Numbers 28:16). Rabbi Abba opened, כְּאַיָּל (ke-ayal), As the deer, yearns for streams of water (Psalms 42:2). We have already learned this verse [see Zohar 2:52b], and although it contains masculine and feminine, it is all one, for the word אַיָּל (ayal), deer, is masculine, while the verb תַּעֲרֹג (ta’arog), yearns, is feminine, and although the subject and the verb should agree in gender, יַעֲרֹג (ya’arog), ‘he yearns,’ is not written because it is all one.

What is אַיֶּלֶת הַשַּׁחַר (ayelet ha-shaḥar), morning star [lit., doe of the dawn] (Psalms 22:1)? This is a certain compassionate animal [Malkhut] and among all the animals of the world there is none compassionate like her, for when time is pressing and she needs nourishment for herself and for all the animals she goes to a distant place, far away, and comes, bringing food, but does not herself want to eat until she returns to her place. Why is this so? So that all the other animals will collect together by her, and she distributes from that food to them. And when she comes, all the other animals do indeed collect around her, and she stands in the middle, and allocates to each one of them. And the sign is in the verse: She gets up while it is still night and provides nourishment for her house and a portion for her young women (Proverbs 31:15). And from what she gives to them she is herself satiated, as if she had eaten more food than all of them [cf. BT Pesaḥim 112a, in the name of Rabbi Akiva: More than the calf wants to suck, the cow wants to suckle]. And when the morning, which is called שַּׁחַר (shaḥar), dawn, arrives, the pangs of the exile come to her, and this is why she is called dawn doe after the blackness of the morning, for she has pangs as a woman giving birth, as it is written: Like a woman with child, that draws near the time of her delivery, is in pain, and cries out in her pangs (Isaiah 26:17).

When does she distribute to them? This is when the morning is just about to come, but it is still night, and the blackness departs for the illumination, as it is written: She gets up while it is still night and provides nourishment for her house (Proverbs 31:15). But by the time it is morning, they are all satiated with her food. And then a certain voice awakens in the midst of the firmament and calls out aloud, saying: Let those who are near, go to their places; let those who are far, leave. Let each one gather to his rightful place. And by the time the sun shines, each one is gathered to its place, as it is written: When the sun comes up, they head home [and in their dens they lie down] (Psalms 104:22). And she departs during the day, and is revealed at night, and distributes [food] in the morning, which is why she is called dawn doe.

Subsequently, she grows stronger and leaves, and is called אַיָּל (ayal), deer [which is a masculine form]. Where does she go? She goes sixty parasangs from the place that she left and she enters into the mountain of darkness. As she goes into the mountain of darkness, a certain labyrinthine serpent sniffs at her feet and follows her, and she ascends from there to the mountain of light. When she reaches there, the blessed Holy One arranges for her another serpent, who goes forth and they fight each other, and she is saved. And from there she takes food, and returns to her place by midnight. And from midnight on, she begins the distribution, until the blackness of the morning arises. And when the morning gives light, she goes from there and is no longer visible, as we have learned. And when the world is in need of rain, all the other animals collect near her, and she goes up to the top of a high mountain, puts her head between her knees, and cries out with one long cry after another. And the blessed Holy One hears her voice, and is overcome with compassion and has pity on the world. And she comes down from the top of the mountain, and runs to hide herself. And all the other animals run after her, but do not find her. This is as it is written: As a deer yearns for streams of water.

What is streams of water? This refers to those water brooks that have dried up, and the world is thirsty for water. Then she yearns. When she conceives, she is closed up, but when the time comes for her to give birth, she screams and cries out, cry after cry, up to seventy screams, as the number of words in the psalm: May YHWH answer you on the day of distress (Psalms 20:2), which is the song of this pregnant one. And the blessed Holy One hears her, and arranges for her a certain large serpent who emerges from the mountains of darkness, and comes between the mountains, its mouth licking the dust and it reaches this doe and comes and bites it twice in the same place. On the first occasion, blood comes, and the serpent licks it. On the second occasion water comes out, and all those animals of the mountains drink, and she herself is opened and gives birth. And a sign for you is the verse: And Moses raised his hand and struck the rock with his staff twice and abundant water came out, and the community, with its beasts, drank (Numbers 20:11). The blessed Holy One has pity on her because of what the serpent did, as it is written: YHWH’s voice brings on the birth-pangs of does and lays bare the forests. And in His palace all says glory (Psalms 29:9). YHWH’s voice brings on the birth-pangs of does—the pangs and pains that give rise to those seventy screams. And then follows: and lays bare the forests in order to awaken that serpent, and reveal the animal to go amongst them. And in His palace—what does this mean? It refers to the temple of the blessed Holy One, in which all those multitudes open and say: Glory! What is meant by glory? It refers to: Blessed be the glory of YHWH from His place (Ezekiel 3:12).

… One might suggest that after seventy [years] she will feel [birth-pangs], and in two years she will give birth [note the numerical value of שַׁבָּת (Shabbat), Sabbath, is 702] one thousand and two hundred years after [the destruction of the temple, that is to say, after the end of the Fifth Millennium, which is all destruction, and a further two hundred years into the sixth millennium, and seventy years for the birth-pangs, and two years for the birth itself] coming to the year 272 [of the Sixth Millennium]. But it is written: Before she travailed, she brought forth; [before her pain came, she was delivered of a man child] (Isaiah 66:7). And the secret of the matter is contained in the verse: And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear (Isaiah 65:24). And what is the meaning of before? Before the completion of the seventy years and the two years following the passing of one thousand and two hundred years, the birth-pangs, two Messiahs will be revealed to the world [Son of Joseph and then Son of David]. And at that time: And in His palace all says glory (Psalms 29:9). And it has already been taught: The wise inherit כָּבוֹד (kavod)glory (Proverbs 3:35). And at that time, those Torah sages will be respected, those who suffered pangs and travails as a woman in labor, and who were despised by the ignorant; they will be honored. And immediately: YHWH was enthroned at the flood (Psalms 29:10) on account of the wicked. Flood—judgments of the flood, when All the wellsprings of the great deep burst [and the casements of the heavens were opened] (Genesis 7:11), at the time of the flood. So, too, judgments will rise over them above and below, with no end. And every contempt and disgrace shown by the idolatrous nations of the world towards YHWH and His people and the many insults that Israel suffered from them for the sake of YHWH’s Name—for all of them the blessed Holy One will exact vengeance, and therefore, as far as they are concerned, [God is jealous, and YHWH avenges;YHWH avenges, and is furious; [YHWH will take vengeance on His adversaries, and He reserves wrath for His enemies] (Nahum 1:2).

And on… the first month (Numbers 28:16). What is the first month? It is Nisan, which is when that animal gave birth to [the lights of redemption], in accord with the teaching of the sages of Mishnah [cf. BT Rosh ha-Shanah 11a]: In the month of Nisan they were redeemed, and in the month of Nisan they will be redeemed [נִיסָן Nisan, is the month of נִסִים (nisim), miracles]. And this is with His יָד (yad), hand [which has a numerical value of fourteen, according to the secret of the verse:] And he said, ‘For יָד (yad), hand, upon Yah’s throne: [War for YHWH against Amalek from all time] (Exodus 17:16), when He swore to remove the seed of Esau, Amalek, from the world. At that time: Draw out and take yourselves sheep according to your clans and slaughter the Passover offering (Exodus 12:21), [where the meaning of] מִשְׁכוּ (mishkhu)draw out, is as in the verse: מָשַׁךְ יָדוֹ (mashak yado)he stretched out his hand, with scoffers (Hosea 7:5).

At that time, thus said YHWH: ‘to the rulers who transgressed against Me: neither shall they enter into the land of Israel (Ezekiel 13:9), and this refers to the shepherds of the flock, the supporters of the generation. Wherefore it is said about them: Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak comfortably unto her (Hosea 2:16). And I will bring you into the wilderness of the people, and there will I enter into judgment with you face to face. Like I entered into judgment with your fathers in the wilderness of the land of Egypt, so will I enter into judgment with you, says YHWH God (Ezekiel 20:35-36), [namely] whom He killed in the plague of darkness” (Zohar 3:249a-b, cf. Zohar 2:219b-220a; Ra’aya Meheimna Aḥarei Mot).

“A voice issued… O low, sleeping ones, closed-eyed, awake! Who among you turns darkness into light, bitter into sweet before arriving here? Who among you awaits each day the light that shines when the King visits the doe and is glorified…? Whoever does not await this each day… has no portion here” (Zohar 1:4a).