Like a Weaned Babe

by tillerofthesoil

originalAnd the manna was like coriander seed and its color like the color of bdellium. The people would go about and gather it and… make it into cakes. And its taste was like the לְשַׁד (leshad), creaminess, of oil (Numbers 11:7-8)—the taste of it was as the taste of a לְשַׁד (leshad), cake baked with oil. Rabbi Abbuha said: Just as the infant finds very many a flavor in the שָׁד (shad), breast, so also did Israel find many a taste in the manna as long as they were eating it. There are some who say: A שֵׁד (shed), demon; even as the demon changes into many colors, so did the manna change into many tastes” (BT Yoma 75a, cf. Avot de-Rabbi Natan §37: “Two people eat from the same bowl, but each one tastes according to his deeds”).

“שְׁנֵי שָׁדַיִךְ (Shenei shadaikh), Your two breasts, are two fawns (Song of Songs 4:5). For in this chamber there is the spirit… [of love], and this living being issued two lights, one included in the other and unified, called, אֵל שַׁדָּי (El Shaddai). These two lights are called שַׁדָּי (Shaddai), and together with אֵל (El), of the chamber below, זְכוּת אֵל (Zekhut El), they join each other and intermingle to be called אֵל שַׁדָּי (El Shaddai), for they issued from the שָּׁדָיִם (shadaim), breasts.

… Here lies the beginning of Abraham, who is of the right, called אַהֲבָה רַבָּא (ahavah rabba), Great Love, as we said. And he received the chamber called אַהֲבָה (ahavah), Love. Then, Your שָׁדַיִם (shadaim), breasts, were firm (Ezekiel 16:7), and filled with goodness to sustain and nourish all from here. And when the breasts were firm and filled by the רְחִימוּ עִלָּאָה (reḥimu illaah), supernal love, then this chamber was called אֵל שַׁדָּי (El Shaddai), as we said. And by this the world found supply when it was created, because when the world was created, it could not exist, and did not endure, until this chamber was revealed, that Abraham took. When Abraham was seen in this chamber, the world said דַי (dai), enough, for there is supply to sustain and nourish the world. It was therefore called אֵל שַׁדָּי (El Shaddai) [in whom there is] enough.

The blessed Holy One will fill and repair it in the future, as it is written, That you may nurse, and be satisfied מִשֹּׁד (mishod), from the breasts, of her consolations; that you may drink deeply, and be delighted with the abundance of her glory (Isaiah 66:11). מִשֹּׁד (Mishod), from the breasts, of her consolations and the abundance of her glory are all in this chamber. Then, at that time, it is written, Who would have uttered to Abraham—‘Sarah is הֵינִיקָה (heiniqah), suckling, sons!’ (Genesis 21:7), for יְנִיקָא (yeniqa), sucking, depends upon Abraham” (Zohar 2:252b, Heikhalot).

But I have calmed and contented myself like a גָּמֻל (gamul), weaned, babe on its mother—like a weaned babe I am with myself (Psalms 131:2).

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